Trick or treat....

Last night was the Becker Halloween bash. I got to see a lot of my Becker buds and got to have fun and dance around.

I left the dance around 11:30 (it ends at 1:00) so that I could get some sleep. I knew I had class in the morning and work so I thought "I'll be responsible and go home now so I won't be dead in the morning"
On my way home, something happened to me that is probably the scariest thing I've ever experienced in my life.

I was stopped at a red light, waiting for the green arrow. I was singing along softly with the music when all of a sudden I felt the impact of a car smashing into the back of my car, going so fast that I was propelled several feet forward into the intersection.

Looking back on the impact is sort of surreal. As surreal as it was to me as it was happening. At first I didn't realize what was happening. I felt the initial impact and then everything started to shake and vibrate around me. I closed my eyes and felt my car being pushed forward. Felt my head snap forward and crash back. I screamed at the top of my lungs with my eyes shut tight. I really can honestly say I've never been so scared.

I didn't know what to do after my car stopped moving. I just sat there shaking violently. I looked out my window and saw two guys asking if I was alright.

"oh my gosh, don't get out of the car." one of them said. I realized why he was overreacting after I got out of the car and looked down at my dress and body that were covered in fake blood. Throughout the night I had to continually explain that I had just come from a Halloween party and was not injured. This was probably the only funny part of the entire night.

My car ended up not being too bad. I've gotten a minor hit by someone before (who drove away) and my car was completely fine then. Ursula is a tough bitch. But the back bumper is falling off and the back license plate is gone and the muffler is down and dragging. And because of this I was pulled over on my way home after the accident :/



So I guess last night I got a trick instead of a treat.

My "Little Voice" is Defective

You know how everyone has their little voice in their head that tells them what to do, what to say, and what not to do and say?

I think mine is defective. It works... but sporadically. Instead of talking to me in a soothing and encouraging tone, it blurts things out in a panicked pitch.

I like to think that most of the time, I'm pretty conscientious of the "right thing" and the "wrong thing". I never have a problem with morals. I do however, have a problem my my little voice making me look like a bumbling insecure idiot.

Almost twice a week, sometimes more often, my voice will blurt out a joke and I'll say it out loud... and then when I don't get a great response to the joke, my voice will shout "OH MY GOSH YOU HAVE TO FIX THIS NOW. Try this, I promise it will make the situation better!"

And then I try whatever remedy my voice wants, usually a long, dull, and awkward explanation of the joke. And every time, it makes the situation worse. And then my voice will compensate by telling me to go on the offensive... which I think we all know, never goes over well.

Me: "We should totally watch So You Think You Can Dance this week!"
Jordan: "I don't need to. I already know all the dances. Ever."
My little voice: Ask him to show you how to do a fancy dance he's never heard of!
Me: Oh yeah (smugly) then show me the VietnameseWaltz!!
Uncle Paul: ............. Vietnamese? It's Viennese... like Vienna...
My little voice: ABORT! Tell him you know what you're talking about and that it's not your fault the people on the show pronounced it wrong! OFFENSIVEEE!

And well.... you can guess the rest.



Twitch and Kherrington from SYTYCD doing a Vietnamese Waltz



My voice is usually the reason for my inexplicable clumsiness too. Without my voice I would probably be able to walk passed someone in the hallway with minimal awkwardness and moderate grace. But with my voice, this would be a more accurate account:

Me: walking along in a straight line, see a person. Smile, "Oh hello."
Person: "Hey, Morning." walks passed me.

VOICE: "Turn that way!! He totally thinks you're a loser for being weird and smiling so big and waving for too long!"

Me: Awkwardly look away and walk fast around a corner and bump into a different person.

VOICE: "Oh my gosh now the first person thinks you're crazy and a loser and this new person is totally judging you for being clumsy. Way to go!"

Me: Sink into a dark twisty abyss.

If you think I'm joking about this I'm totally not. My voice actually says stuff like this to me.

One day I'll rise above my little voice!



Ninja me, getting ready to kick some little voice ass



"Taylor!: The College Years" Series Finale Date Officially Set

Don't worry, I'm not dead!! I just decided to grow up and be a real adult. Like with a job and stuff.  So I've been busy doing work and being all productive and have neglected my blog and its diehard fans ;)

I was just reading Jenny's blog again. It made me feel inferior because her style is so relatable and quirky. She has no problem capturing my attention and holding it there. But of course, it doesn't hurt that she's basically me minus two years. I was her RA her freshman year at Becker and now she is a second year RA.

I was on facebook and saw that all of the Becker RA's moved back today and start training soon. If I hadn't had such a terrible year last year, I would probably be jealous of them.

 As much of a pain in the butt RA training can be, it still can be a lot of fun and there's no other time throughout the entire year when you'll feel as close to all the other RA's as you do during training. And it's also so much fun being there together without any residents. It's almost like being at camp.

The best part for me during training last year was being a seasoned RA and being allowed to act out a scene during "Behind Closed Doors". I won't give too much away because some newbie RAs could be reading this.... but I will say that it was the performance of the century!

Although I won't be returning to Becker this year as an RA, I will be returning for one last class. I'll be taking Primatology in the fall as the final chapter in my Undergrad career. Is there more schooling in my future? You never know.... but for now, I think I'll be content to just lay the series to rest and work for a while to try to pay off the loans that are hanging over my head :/

Hey Sports Fans!

If you enjoy sports you should check out my friend's blog, Dirty Water Sports! And make sure you like their facebook page because they are doing a giveaway soon! Tell your friends because once they reach 150 likes, they are giving away a $15 dunkin donut's giftcard! And maybe I'll start thinking about doing a giveaway if I start getting more followers!

Adopt! Don't buy or breed!

I posted on my facebook asking what people want to see me write about and one of the comments I got was pet stores, like Debbie's Petland which was just closed down.

I am a strong believer in adoption of animals and I am against puppy mills and also professional breeders. I don't think that people should be breeding animals for a profit when there are so many unwanted animals in shelters that have to be euthanized everyday. Why should people be allowed to breed dogs to make money when thousands of dogs are being killed everyday across the country because there are too many of them in the first place. I believe that buying a dog from a "reputable breeder" is almost as bad as buying a dog from a puppy mill.

I'm not here to preach at anyone and you're allowed to get your dog whichever way you want. But I do advise that people adopt animals. There are simply too many unwanted dogs (and other animals) in the world for people to be greedy and try to make money off of breeding. And the people who are buying these dogs need to understand that just because your dog doesn't come from a licensed breeder with a bunch of pedigrees and trophies, doesn't mean that you aren't getting a great pet. You can still get pure bred dogs from rescue leagues if that's the reason you don't want to adopt.

But on the other end of that, "mutts" or mixed breed dogs are generally healthier animals anyway because they are not ruined by the genetic defects caused by selective breeding, like hip dysplasia.

I used to be part of an organization called "Dogs Deserve Better" which was focused on keeping people from chaining up their dogs outside. They were also advocates for adopting dogs. I made this youtube video while I was part of the organization, about the awful consequences of chaining a dog.

Vlog-- My Last RA Adventure

Great photos that I forgot I had

Well hello again! I have an interview tomorrow which probably means that I will be getting 0 sleep tonight (that's the number zero... which means no sleep) because I have extreme problems with anxiety! So I'm blogging again because I realized I have a bunch of photos that I can share with you guys. While on duty this semester and at some other random times, I was able to take photos of some pretty funny things. And now I'm finally getting around to posting them.

This one is a photo of Whitney pretending to lick a cup that's shaped like a lady. We found it at the mall and she almost bought it to bring to our RA training dinner.

This was after a huge snow storm at school my car got plowed in BIG time and I was supposed to take my car to the Worcester campus for class 20 minutes after this was taken. Obviously that didn't happen. I shoveled myself out that weekend and it took almost 2 hours with the help of a sidewalk plow!

This was taken one night on duty outside one of the houses on campus. Its a huge (probably was about 4 feet tall) icicle that was plunged into a snow bank. I thought it was really cool looking.

This is my brother Jordan, in a box.

This is a photo of the inside of my desk drawer in my dorm room. Obviously the occupants from previous years had more fun than I did.

This is a poster that was hanging up in one of the dorms. I saw this while on duty and got really confused. If you know what this is supposed to mean, leave me a comment.

Nick and I got really bored and filled this orange juice bottle with ripped up napkins.

Twister on spree day was a blast! That's Courtney's butt.

Found this on duty. Basically the college freshman care package.

This is a picture of the rig I had to set up in order to capture my brother's cat and transport him. He was too wild to fit into a small cat cage so I rigged a mouse trap and got him to go into a dog crate and then we had to tape a blanket over it so he wouldn't attack us through the bars... fun day haha.

I put paint tape on my mom's back...

I taped a cheese puff to Tim's door. It stayed there for quite some time...

My mom is an animal whisperer.... slash my animals are obsessed with food...

I'm a ninja. WHAT?! I actually just have my jacket on backwards with the hood up over my head and unsnapped so I could breathe... but I bet I fooled you!

Someone left this bowl and spoon on a tree outside on campus... they had to have their bowl, had to have cereal.

The inside of the milk jug that was in my fridge for a long time. It was yellow liquid and a big solid white square in the middle. Fantastic haha

Nick being creepy with Rebecca Black and her awkward limo friends.

Me partying it up with doglover!

I had this paint drawing saved on my computer..........

My friend Austin sent me this photo of me that he edited....

A photo that I had planned on posting to my facebook on spree day...It never happened.

He wasn't too thrilled that I interupted his down time while I was on duty... but I doubt he was actually reading that magazine because it's upside-down....

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Illuminate Part II: Decorative Lights

May 5th-- Decorative Lights

This is the second installment of the photo series I started last month. It features different decorative lights from around Becker College including my own and a few volunteers'. And remember that if you want to see one of the photos better, just click on it and it will open it and zoom in. Enjoy! More illuminate photos to come soon. Comment if you have any ideas for types of light I can photograph!

I don't give a chapstick!!

Everyone is talking about Osama being dead. And I do believe TMNTyler said it best.

But really, I do give a chapstick. I just tend to rebel from what the majority of people my age think is important. So here's my requisite post of Osama Bin Ladin biting the dust.

Why yes hair dresser, I would like to look like a poodle. Thanks for anticipating that.

Today I went to chop all of my hair off. It was ridiculously long and I was getting increasingly tired of having to deal with it. So I went to the salon and told the lady how short I wanted it. I told her that I wanted to still be able to put it in a pony tail but that I wanted the majority of it cut off. Little did I know, this woman learned how to cut hair on small variety dogs. (Not really but it seems that way)

She continued to yap away at me, which is something that all hair dressers do that drives me crazy. I'm okay with a little silence, you don't need to ask me my life story while you're cutting my hair. I usually let the hair dresser do her thing because she's the hair dresser, I'm not. She (should) know what she's doing. So my hair dresser asked me if I would be opposed to some layering and I said no. Layering is fine I didn't really care, I've had layers in my hair before. But as she was chopping away, I noticed that my hair was getting shorter and shorter by the second.

And that's when I started to panic. My hair probably loses about 3 inches of its length once it dries. And it was already looking waaaay too short. When she finished, it was still wet and looked alright. But when I got home, it had started to dry, and I realized just how crazy she had gone with the layering. I absolutely looked like a poodle. The length is fine, but because she went so crazy with the layering, I now have what can only be described as a white girl afro that can just barely fit into a pony tail. So I think its relatively safe to say that I will be wearing my hair up for a couple weeks until it starts to grow back....

Before

After

 And don't be misled by the fact that it looks kind of tame and non-afro like in the photo. I ran a straightener through it... I'm petrified to think about what it's going to look like if I let the full blown curls take over... I'll have a pretty sweet jew-fro......

Coffee Catastrophe/ Danger Dog

my name is taylor and I'm addicted to Incubus

Okay so I'm really sorry about the last post. I'm trying really hard to not do homework/cleaning/laundry right now... which doesn't leave me with much else to do. So I'm really bored.

I JUST FOUND OUT that you can feed the fish on my blog!!!! I'm super excited about that. You just click in the box (...tank?) and a little nugget appears and the fish go crazy for it!!

Tonight at dinner my friends and I were talking about awkward situations. One of my favorite topics obviiooouusslly. So here are a few of my favorites:

1. When you're talking about someone and you don't realize they are right there and can hear you and you try unsuccessfully to smoothly change what you are saying to make yourself look like less of a douche bag.
2. When you're in the bathroom and the person in the stall next to you is talking to you/thinks you're their friend when you're not and you have to awkwardly explain that you're not their friend/your professor is in the bathroom at the same time because they don't have staff bathrooms at Becker
3. When you ask people to follow and comment on your blog and they DON'T.
4. When your shoes are super squeaky in a quiet hallway.
5. When you laugh at someone else's inside joke and they look at you like you have three heads and you don't know how to explain why you laughed because you don't know why you laughed.
6. When someone makes a joke and you laugh at it during a really serious moment. Like when your friend tells you his shirt is on backwards during a seminar on autism...
7. When you see someone at Walmart and pretend you don't know them/don't see them so you don't have to talk to them because that would be 2857589643 times more awkward
8. Basically any social situation.

Tell me some of your favorites!

The next person to follow my blog gets this free....

 

 

hahahaha don't judge me. Just follow me. Lying is bad, so don't lie. You want my autograph. Because you think my awkwardness is endearing. 

I have really old milk in my fridge.

I do this thing, where I purposely put off cleaning my room when I know it's really bad, because I know it'll take obscene amounts of effort to clean it. And this especially applies to cleaning out my fridge. I know there is a quart of milk in there that has been there since before spring break. And I really don't want to have to deal with disposing of milk that is that rotten so I'm just not dealing with it.... and in the mean time it is getting more and more rotten.

Ursula's glamor shot

If you read my blog regularly and/or know me personally, then you know that procrastination is something that I'm expert about. Remember how I talked about how my death-trap of a car is going to explode on me someday... and how I put transmission fluid in it and thought that it would be okay for a little while? Well now it's even worse. I'm dropping it off at Brandon's house this weekend so he can take a look at it for me. It's a good car and only has 30k miles on it so I'd feel bad giving up on it. So yeah, I'm procrastinating getting it fixed... which is bad. Don't procrastinate if you don't want to die in an automobile related hell-fire calamity.

I got recognized today on the Worcester Campus as the "unhappy person in the audience" from the play "I Hate Shakespeare" that I was in this weekend. It made me feel like a celebrity! I was all "HECK YES I was the unhappy person!"-- well I wasn't that enthusiastic about it... but I was still excited.

Artie is the best. Fact.

I haven't watched tonight's new episode of Glee yet and probably won't get to it until tomorrow night, so if you see me, and mention what happened during the episode, I might shoot you dead. I don't know how soon they post the episodes on Hulu but I'm going to check now if it's up there... so I can try to avoid shooting people dead in general. Because that's bad too.

Can you tell that I'm really tired? And I don't know what's wrong with me and why I can't just go to sleep at a normal time like normal people. I have an interview at UMass Medical Center on Monday. I hope I get it, but my sleeping habits are going to be a real problem. Wish me luck! Also, you guys suck at commenting.

Gotta do a hop on Tuesday

It's Tuesday! Watch this Rebecca Black-- Friday parody. It will make you feel good about this gross rainy soggy Tuesday. And check out thecomputernerd01 while you're there, he's got some ridiculously funny parodies on there as well as a bunch of other good stuff!

I'm in class right now and since paying attention and taking notes is obviously not an option, I'm going to talk about how annoying the boy in front of me is. He's probably wearing an entire bottle of some stupid cologne he thinks smells good. And he keeps leaning back in his chair and almost hitting my laptop with his head. Thanks guy.

This really is the most boring class I've ever had in my life. I'm not even remotely interested in Principles of leadership and management. And there are always these awkward moments when the professor stops and doesn't talk for about 30 seconds. And I have to nervously look up at him to make sure that he's not giving me the stank eye.

He definitely told us we'd be getting out early today and the time is ticking away and I'm still sitting here. Fantastic. I feel bad because I have the worst attitude towards school these days because I can see the finish line and it's so close that my mind has already quit trying but I still have to sit in class and do work and pretend like I care even when I don't. Anyone have any good motivation techniques? Because all of mine are completely burnt out and it is so impossible to do well and get good grades when my brain just wants to give up. Comment and let me know!

video and light teasers

 Recently I decided it would be great to start video blogging. But since I'm ridiculously over-conscious of the fact that people can hear me talking in my room, I haven't really had the chance to do much besides this:

And I know I said at the end of that video that I would come back later to update... but when I set it up later that night and was about to start talking to my webcam, my neighbors in the room next to me came back and I didn't want them to hear me.... so I will probably upload some actual video blogs this weekend when I go home. And we'll hope that it's not super awkward.

I'm also hoping to have a new installment of 'illuminate' up soon. It will most likely be based on decorative lights. I need a few more photos for it so if you have some cool decorative/christmas lights let me know and I will come awkwardly photograph them. Here's a preview to the right.






So you guys should comment below telling me whether you think that a video blog would be cool or if you'd rather I just kept typing these. Or comment with some ideas of what I should do for the illuminate series. And if you haven't already, follow me! It only takes a second and you don't need an account or anything (I don't think...I could be lying...)

illuminate

I borrowed my brother's camera today. When I got back from his house, I was feeling really frustrated and overwhelmed and upset so I decided to take the camera out and fool around a bit because the sky looked really ominous. As I started taking photos, I came to this one.

I loved it so much that I decided that I was going to start a series based on streetlights. I spent the better part of an hour laying on the ground taking photos of streetlights around campus and then realized that I didn't just want the series to focus on street lights but all light. So from now on, I'll be updating and posting photos in the "illuminate" tab of the blog. The photos and updates will all appear there (all together for your convenience) but I will still post them on the main page on my blog too.


April 4, 2011-- The first set of photos, streetlights.