I have no doubt, one day the sun will come out.

I miss pretty daisy weather :(

Brother brother we all see
You're hiding out so painfully.
See yourself come out to play.
A lover's rain will wash away
Your envy and your fear.
So have no envy, no fear.
~Joshua Radin






It's gotten to that time of the season when it rains for days and I can see that it's definitely been affecting people's moods. Especially my own. I find myself reverting to the way I usually get when I'm depressed...even though I'm not. I'm actually really happy with the way things are going in my life right now, except for a couple things that I want but can't have : /...but I'm getting over that. So I should probably stop brooding and listening to sad music because I'm not sad... I'm blaming it on the depressing weather.

So remember the other day when I said that I had written the word "rain" in my notebook but couldn't remember what I wanted to say about the rain? I remembered! It had started to rain shortly after I had cut my nails, but I didn't realize that it was raining out. I just heard this weird noise. I went searching frantically around my room trying to find the noise (because I can't sleep with any weird noises happening). I threw away some pieces of paper and random shuffly noise things that I thought maybe my fan was blowing around. But nothing seemed to stop the noise. Then finally, I looked out the window and saw that it was raining and recognized the noise as water coming out of the gutter and onto the roof of the cafeteria below my window. I'm so silly.

I updated the Insomnia Playlist! Be cool like me and listen to these songs for inspiration!

 1. The Funeral- Band of Horses*
 2. Non Believer- La Rocca*
 3. Wish You Were Here- Incubus
 4. Sky- Joshua Radin
 5. Naive- The Kooks (FYI my mom told me that she doesn't like The Kooks because they sound like the type of guys who would be wearing skinny jeans, white button down shirts, and black skinny ties. um... mom you were a beatles groupie back in the day were you not?)
 6. Lovers in Japan- Coldplay
 7. I Will Follow You into the Dark- Death Cab For Cutie
 8. Sing Theresa Says- Greg Laswell
 9. Polaris- Jimmy Eat World
10. Huddle Formation- The Go! Team
11. Speeding Cars- Imogen Heap*
12. Dig- Incubus
13. Work- Jimmy Eat World
14. Who Says- John Mayer
15. No Envy No Fear- Joshua Radin*
16. New Slang- The Shins
17. Kill- Jimmy Eat World
18. Casimir Pulaski Day- Sufjan Stevens*
19. World Spins Madly On- The Weepies

I feel like all of the songs bring out such strong emotional responses for me. I wonder if it's true for other people as well? Listen to some of them and let me know. The ones with stars next to them are the ones that bring out especially strong emotions in me. So start with those first and then let me know! Seriously though I really would love to find out if others experience similar feelings when listening to these songs or if it's just me and the way my brain interprets things (because we know how different my brain works than most!) or maybe my experiences and associations that my brain has made? Even if you don't want to take part in my little experiment, I do suggest listening to these songs. But I do encourage you to tell me if you experience an emotional response to any of the songs.

And now that I've convinced all of you once and for all that I'm absolutely crazy...